Call of the Cross



It’s time to be perfectly clear, to put it all on the table.
A long time ago I said I’d follow You, no matter the cost.
But the cost I’ve found is pricey, and I haven’t spent myself.
Personal risk versus personal gain,
I’ve weighed them all out and have chosen what’s been best for me.
I’ve drawn the line that I won’t cross only to find,
That holding reserve has left me empty.

You’re drawing me back to the call of the cross,
To lay down my life and to count it but loss,
To follow You, Jesus, no matter the cost,
I keep coming back to the call of the cross.

I don’t even really understand what it truly means,
It’s a way I’ve seldom traveled,
But I must come to the end of me, so that You’d be seen,
And others be set free.
What does it look like to lay down my life?
What does it mean to be a living sacrifice?
How will I live it, or should I say, how will I die,
As worship to You with all of my life?

And You’re drawing me back to the call of the cross,
To lay down my life and to count it but loss,
To follow You, Jesus, no matter the cost,
I keep coming back to the call of the cross.

Well, I have a lot of questions, and I’m willing to comply,
To mount up on this altar and allow myself to die,
To let You live Your life through this less-than-perfect me,
I’m ready to finally trust You,
I’m ready to finally trust You…completely.

And You’re drawing me back to the call of the cross,
To lay down my life and to count it but loss,
To follow You, Jesus, no matter the cost,
I keep coming back to the call,
I keep coming back to the call,
I keep coming back and I keep coming back

Oh, I keep coming back to the call of the cross.

Copyright 1999 Becki Hedrick – Music & Lyrics – All Rights Reserved

 

CALL OF THE CROSS

There are certain points in the Christian life when it’s necessary to stop and take stock of how things are going. When Call of the Cross was written, I was at such a place. It was a time of honest reflection, recognizing that I had moved from a place of following Jesus with both feet, to being given over to a condition of the heart that was more about protecting personal rights to my time, my preferences, my inner life, my terms to investing myself in the kingdom. Somewhere along the line, I had made a transition from allowing Him complete access to everything about me to taking control of myself. Jesus said, “If anyone wishes to come after Me, he must deny himself, and take up his cross daily and follow Me.” (Luke 9:23)

And so that call was heard…drawing, pulling, saying, “Give it up. Disown all that rises up out of the selfish motivations of the heart. Those self-centered attitudes must be the same as dead to you if you want to follow Jesus.” That call is heard over and over, daily, drawing me to a place where I can settle the struggle between the Spirit and self to hold the place of supremacy in my life. The cross is a place of death…reserved for the disposing of a self-centered, self-serving, self-motivated existence so the Holy Spirit can empower all who believe, to live a life centered and motivated to serve, above all else, the One, True Living God, and the people that He made.

Shhhhh – listen! Can you hear the call?